Dead and gone

Is it grief, is it pain, is it terror ... For no reason, not any obvious in any case, I got to see only terrifying images of this long trip we call life. It could have been worse, but right now it's like there's no support. It's like everything I was standing on just collapsed and now I get to find myself suspended in grief, pain ... or at least an illusion of them two. Which way is out? That's kinda easy to acknowledge. Take a real case as an example and say, what would you do in the situation of your beloved one would be treating you like , let's say, shit. My advice, and the best thing to do and the right thing as well is to ... run, run as far and fast as you can, never ever let him back in your life. Monsters can't change, they feed on other people's fear and tears, especially of those who care for them, because they know those loved ones are going to always be there for them, feeding their lust for harm, their selfish cruelty, their permanent will to do wrong.

There's nothing you can do to help them. Human nature is not something one can easily control. They feel pleasure when making others fall and suffer. It's more like a disease, a malfunction. They cannot control it. And most of them don't even want to ask for help.

I've seen a clip where there was a debate about the sadistic people. They have something not working right in their nervous system and because of that they feel pleasure when they see open wounds and other people bleeding. The pleasure is so strong in those moments that they can even get overexcited. They are not guilty of their illness. But they are definitely responsible of feeding it and not seeking support and guidance to overcome it. As far as the psychological harm is involved, nobody talks about sadism. Specialists only draw attention on those who feel pleasure for the physical pain, but nobody says anything about those feeling pleased on the emotional pain of others.

And there's a reason to it. Psychologically sadistic people can seem like normal ones. They can work normally in any domain, they can socialize, they can do chores, routine, act normal. Only that, once you get to know them better you discover the monster watching from the inside, the cold look and lack of expression. One way to track down such traits before is too late consists of paying attention to their way of manifesting emotions, feelings, and opinions. You'll feel the cold in their emotions, they are not able to care for anybody, even if they pretend they do. They usually put a great accent on intimacy, privacy, they keep secret parts of their life and memories, they don't enjoy showing too much of themselves. They find it hard to say how they feel, because they have no explanation for NOT feeling anything. When you cry, you will never feel warmness coming from them, even if they try to show empathy, if won't try to fool yourself you will feel the cold, the lack of any deeper emotion.

And in the same time they find it almost impossible to give arguments or make up opinions. They only guide themselves by instinct, and are not able to coherently explain how they choose their actions.

So when you see or discover such an individual, run as hell and never look back. No matter what, no matter if you feel pity for them, or if you feel sorry for their condition. Your presence will only feed their greed.