Hell of a Paradise

"Thy friendship oft has made my heart to ache: do be my enemy for friendship's sake."
- William Blake

"Associate yourself with men of good quality if you esteem your own reputation; for 'tis better to be alone than in bad company."
- George Washington (1732 - 1799)

"True friendship is a plant of slow growth, and must undergo and withstand the shocks of adversity before it is entitled to the appellation."
- George Washington

"It is not so much our friends' help that helps us as the confident knowledge that they will help us."
- Epicurus (341 - 270 BC)

"Be slow to fall into friendship; but when thou art in, continue firm and constant."
- Socrates
"Anybody can sympathise with the sufferings of a friend, but it requires a very fine nature to sympathise with a friend's success."
- Oscar Wilde

"If you judge people, you have no time to love them."
- Mother Teresa

"I will speak ill of no man, and speak all the good I know of everybody."
- Benjamin Franklin

"Misfortune shows those who are not really friends."
- Aristotle

"The bird a nest,
the spider a web,
man friendship."
- William Blake

"A true friend stabs you in the front."
- Oscar Wilde

"Grief can take care of itself, but to get the full value of joy you must have somebody to divide it with."
- Mark Twain

"Thus nature has no love for solitude, and always leans, as it were, on some support; and the sweetest support is found in the most intimate friendship."
- Cicero

"Advice is like snow; the softer it falls, the longer it dwells upon, and the deeper it sinks into the mind."
- Samuel Taylor Coleridge

"The friendship that can cease has never been real."
- Saint Jerome

"Sir, more than kisses, letters, mingle souls;
For, thus friends absent speak."
- John Donne

"Friends have all things in common."
- Plato

"The most beautiful thing we can experience is the mysterious, it is the true sourse of art, science, and friendship."
- Albert Einstien

"Walking with a friend in the dark is better than walking alone in the light."
- Helen Keller

"A friend should be a master at guessing and keeping still."
- Friedrich Nietzsche

"A friend to all is a friend to none."
- Aristotle

"Good communication is as stimulating as black coffee, and just as hard to sleep after."
-Anne Morrow Lindbergh

"Friendship? Yes Please."
-Charles Dickens

"In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends."
- Martin Luther King Jr.

The Lady and the Dickhead

"Să te măriţi cu un om venit de la ţară, e ca şi cum te-ai arunca cu capul înainte într-o piscină goală"

True light only lasts for one second and if you are lucky enough you might catch it in a picture. The right picture. Can it be another way of looking at everything using something different than our eyes? There is. One way which helps us see what others see. Few are able to use it and fewer can name it. Could it be an object? might. Could it be a present. It definitely is. How can you find it? You can't, it finds you. How can you recognize it? It fits your palm. The simple gesture of someone handing it to you gives you the opportunity to enter that person's world. And if you are aware of that, you might also have the possibility of owning that world. Quite simple as well as discreet.

p.s. friends come from fakes

Insanity is the word of the day >>>

Raise your eyes towards them. Have the courage. Raise your eyes. Make them bleed. You're not lost. Raise your eyes. Take the deep look inside. The entire Universe locked up into you. Raise your eyes. Hear their prayers. See their soul. Raise your fucking eyes. Look it straight in it's heart. The truth is you raise your eyes.

The search, there is no search. Your quest, there is none. It's just the simplest task of all. Never be afraid of you. Look straight. Raise your eyes.

When you're passing them by, near their suffering, near their fear, near their awful needs, near their emptiness, raise your fucking eyes. There are no fears, there are no needs, there are no empty spaces. There is you only. All of you. So raise your eyes.

Mirabile Dictu

I've read so many advice columns that my eyeballs got used to the same constant movement of reading a line after another, without breathing and trying to get at the end before completely understanding the beginning. And after all that time consuming and time losing activity i've made my decission. No more miss(es) nice pink anymore, enough is enough and i have to start purchasing my one, limitted purpose in life which is: respect myself and work in my advantage not against me. Easier said than done, but every long run starts with a first step, so my first productive decision I've managed do adopt is letting go of the dumb heads. Indeed, i've been paying attention to all those dmb-headed people in my life that there hasn't been any time left for myself, so ended up fattening with junk food to pretend easing the stress out, or to make sleeping impossible at any proper time, or even enjoy a small moment of quiet. I ended up in my own soup of furstration. So I called it a day and threw all the junk and jerks out for a cleaner. For every exact kick in the butt i will receive I will have somthing wonderful done for myself. I can produce an example for that matter, and say: if supposably my confession priest had decided to let someone handle the main web page of the church i usually go to (that was my responsibility until recently) to this new face trash female, in replace I will develope my software programming languanges I already know the basics for, as html, c++, php, java and mysql, and enlarge my portofolio so I will defintely be easily observed, and offer an image of what my loss represents. Amen.

This consists of my latest discovery and hell yes i'm eager to folow it up over and over till getting to the next level of having fun, and not wasting my life on average chaps anymore.

The future is suppose to offer bright opportunities and i'm on it to finding the diamonds of what it has to give.

Burial Archangel

Hell breaking loose

I ended up wishing to share my life with 2 different people. I got myself in the situation of being with one, then with another, then leaving and returning to the last one than wishing to come back to the other one again. Until I actually got to be with both in the same time. All my life I was frightened by pictures like this one, and here I am now actually being part of it. Like I was playing in a cheap commercial for Romanian wine.

I was strongly feeling that this is not me, I didn't recognize myself in this context and I couldn't explain why I was having feelings for both of them. It seamed to me as an artificial and most shallow image and I was certain this is not what I've been searching for.

Now I made myself choose a path, I chose to draw the line, lock the gates and let the 2 people stand by themselves. It might look unfair, but it would have really been terrible if I would have accepted to remain part of it. At the end of the day, I've lost 2 so called "friends" and gained a new chance of being myself. Even so, the picture is far from being the truthful one because what I actually am has nothing to do with a simple, innocent image ... I am something ... else?

Ce am primit de ziua mea

Am de la un om minunat, pe care de cele mai multe ori nu îl înţeleg aşa cum şi-ar dori el, şi pe care de şi mai multe ori ajung să nu-l suport, dar ... mai sunt momente când învăţ să am încredere.

Oricum nu ghiceşte nimeni ce am primit.